LIVE IS CHRIST, DIE IS GAIN

Armageddon

2010-07-13T00:34:00.004+08:00

Wow....finally I am blogging again. Hahaha....you will be thinking what is this all about by posting the picture of the movie Armageddon. Well it is not about the end time, it's something to do about the movie that has caused me to want to blog. If you have watched it before, it's ok...go and watch it as a refresher. Ok....will continue.

Alright alright, here is the continuation after so many days. For most of us who have watched this movie will know that Bruce Willis became the hero of the world by sacrificing his life to ignite the nuclear warheads in the meteor that is heading earth. It can be said as unbelievable to the extend of normal citizen being chosen out from the streets to become astronaut in 10-12 days of training. Unbelievable but yet this is Hollywood man and anything can happen in a movie. Haha.

Anyway, that's not what I am trying to get at. Laughing at the movie and what is unbelievable about the show. As the movie built up near the end of it, something happen. Something came upon me. It's the presence of God. I cannot stand it but just shed tears. Not because Bruce has to die (which some or most will cry) but because of the tangible presence of God. The movie revealed 2 things to me again or you can say how God spoke to me.

1. John 15:13 (NIV) - Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

This is the part where Ben Affleck's character was to be the one supposed to ignite the bomb but was pushed and taken over by Bruce. He is willing to do that not because Ben is the son in law but a friend/son.

2. John 3:16 (The Message) - This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

This part of the movie is where the reminder came. Bruce sacrificing himself for humankind. The message is so clear and I simply could not hold back my tears realising how Jesus as the Son of God died on the cross for me. He need not do that but yet He chose to because of God's love for us. For me.

And if you are reading this, may the Lord speaks to you and may you give your heart to him. And if you want to believe and confessed that Jesus is Lord, do pray this prayer with me.

Prayer:
Dear God in heaven, I come to you in the name of Jesus. I acknowledge to You that I am a sinner, and I am sorry for my sins and the life that I have lived; I need your forgiveness.

I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin.

You said in Your Holy Word, Romans 10:9 that if we confess the Lord our God and believe in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead, we shall be saved.

Right now I confess Jesus as the Lord of my soul. With my heart, I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. This very moment I accept Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and according to His Word, right now I am saved.

Thank you Jesus for your unlimited grace which has saved me from my sins. I thank you Jesus that your grace never leads to license, but rather it always leads to repentance. Therefore Lord Jesus transform my life so that I may bring glory and honor to you alone and not to myself.

Thank you Jesus for dying for me and giving me eternal life. In Jesus' name I pray.
Amen.

If you have made this prayer, I encourage you to be found in Church. Do pop me a message in the chat box or email me. God bless you and have a nice day.

FEAR

2010-03-14T08:15:00.003+08:00

Good morning to you all again. This is most probably the 2nd time that I woke up at 7am and couldn't sleep in 6 months. I tried to but somehow a lot of thought swam through my mind. You might be thinking what is the thing that caused me to lose sleep. Well there are a lot of things but one of the thing is fear and yes another word is worry.

I won't go into details of what are the thing that I am fearful of or worry. I know it is not nice having this feelings. Last week CG, we did a 'full body' check-up. Haha you might be thinking what body check-up? Well obviously not the physical but the spiritual. There are about 20 things to go through for the check-up but there are 2 that tops it.

One of it is that our body is the temple of our holy Papa and what have we done with it is very important and crucial because we are responsible for the body that God has given us. If we don't take care of it, we are answerable to Him. So I urge you bros and sis, please take care of your body...don't destroy it by taking unnecessary stuff that harms it. This is because I experienced it myself recently also. Hahaha...this is another topic by itself.

The 2nd thing that is 'crippling' me is worry. Well yes I am a worry type and I think a lot and most of it......not healthy to the spirit. Those who knew me will be thinking, this fella ah must be worrying of not having a help mate but wrong...this is not what I am worried about. How about money...well a bit. You knowlah price of everything shot up so how to have enough. What I want to share is this. I am worried of the unnecessary. Worried of the unforeseen, of the future. Worried of losing something very close and very dear to me. That is part of the reason why I woke up and cannot sleep. Guessed that this has caused a desperation in my heart. A longing for His touch.

So sometimes certain things is inevitable but there is one thing that is for sure that Papa is always here for us. Always by our side. (to be continued)

(continuing)
Well worry and fear always come and indeed it is assuring that the Lord is with us always to the end of the age. The thing that I am worrying and fearing about has been answered by what was written in Gems for the Heart and definitely I want to thank Papa for using my sis to encourage me through this blog. Thanks Cher.

Amen!! He will walk us through every changes in life.

Christmas and New Year

2009-12-19T16:45:00.002+08:00

Wow! Christmas and New Year is just around the corner. A lot of things has happen and 2010 is approaching. There were good and bad that happen but then I want to believe and trust God for a better new year.

As far as I know, I have so many things that I wanted to do but then a lot of things have to be put on hold. And there is a certain thing that God impressed in my heart as I was in town searching for Christmas gifts for church. This very word pop up. Move on...bro...move on. Put everything behind.. whether good or bad, move on and cross to 2010 afresh.

Well I want to feel anew and I need Papa to help me coz I know that I cannot. Yes I cannot but with Papa, everything is possible.

Amen.

The Pain in the Eye

2009-11-26T11:28:00.002+08:00

It has been about 2 months I last blog. Quite a number of events happened and can't seems to blog. Some is just that I don't know how to put to words. Anyway last Sunday, I participated in the 2009 Penang International Bridge Marathon. It was another great experience but will blog more about that later on.

Have you ever experienced a temporary blindness before? I did and this happened yesterday night (251109) in a floorball event. How did it happen? Is it the ball, the blade or the player just whacked you on the eye or was pushed and hit something? Well it was one of the above. The funny thing is I put it as my shout out in Facebook praising Papa for having my eyesight still, I have a friend who mentioned jokingly that must have been peeping on some girls...hahaha...anyway, that's just a joke, k.

The thing happened so quickly. As I was in a corner refereeing, the ball came around my area. So I thought it should be ok with the wall beside me protecting me but I was wrong. Why? Because all the players that played are very new in the game. So high sticks are inevitable. I for once didn't forsee that coming and WHAM!!!! goes the blade into my face at my left eye. Praise Papa that there is no blood. My contact lens still intact though my eye are near blue black. Can't really open though it is not really really painful that would make me crinch on the floor rolling around like some of the footballers who fake it on the field. Hahaha!! Thanking Papa that someone went out to get some ice for me to prevent swelling. Phew! At that point, I am not mad at the person but just allow the game to go on and let Penny take over. The funny thing is that person also did't realise that he actually hit me.

Anyway, I really thank Papa. Reeally!! I want to thank and praise Papa for His protection if not I will be blinded. I would say that though I still haven't really gotten back my eyesight fully, I would still want to thank Him coz without Him, I would be known as the One Eyed Ken. The reason is simple, in His word it has written in 1 Thessalonians 5:18 "...give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." So praise Himlah....Hahahahaha!!!!

p/s: So to those who got the ball in the eye last time, I can understand your pain but don't know whether you know the pain of having the blade to it...kekekeke

Starting well vs Ending well

2009-09-17T21:23:00.006+08:00

Hey people, here I am again blogging. Something caught my eyes recently while browsing through a friends photo album online. Oh by the way before I continue, I went and came back from Singapore for an IFF Seminar and it is indeed a fulfilling and great one. Everything paid for which include makan and lodging. Just that had to pay for the transportation down.

Anyway let me continue. What is the thing that caught my eyes? Let's see it.

After looking at it, somehow the word actually reminded me of my Christian life and it is not about how I start as a Christian but how I ended it with the CROSS insight. So I came out with this myself..."What's amazing is not how you Start. What's amazing is how you End." and really God is looking at how we end rather than how we start.

So let's run this race with the CROSS in mind as we cross the finishing line.

Ouch!!!

2009-09-01T16:58:00.004+08:00

Haha...you might be thinking what's it got to do with the title of this post.

Today you can say that I am not really at home/office. I sent my mom to the hospital for her stomach check-up then proceeded to prayer at Ps Ed's house. After that went to pick my mom up again from the hospital. My gosh, just waiting to collect medicine took her quite a while and even when I went there it was not her turn yet and she has been waiting for 1 hour plus already. I can say thank God that I have a pharmacist friend which after much thinking went for her help. As you can say, viola, everything kau tim within minutes. Anyway, thanks Jo.

Ok ok. The reason of this post is not about that. Just some summary of what happen along the way. Today is the day that I have to go for my dental appointment. Was having this tooth that was broken for quite sometimes. Thankfully it did not hurt at all. I would say that it is God which did the root canal earlier on. Haha. Power of prayer.

Well I have to extract this broken tooth and also to redo the fillings on the other tooth (which I have to go again due to machine malfunction) sigh. Anyway, after extracted the tooth, God reminded me of something again when I am driving back (had 1 reminder 2 weeks ago concerning this). And this something is called Sin.

I was having this tooth which is broken for almost 2 years and I did went to see the dentist but somehow missed the appointment. And since no pain, I forgo it. So it is similar like sin, which we know that we need to 'extract' it out from our life but then because it sometimes feels good, we didn't. So after I had this sensitive tooth, I decided....OK it's time to take it out no matter whether there is a hole in between the roll of teeth.

So likewise if we don't do anything to this sin in us, it will still be in us eating away our lives and causing us to move away from God which is called backslide. There is a word in the bible in Matt5:8 that says..."Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God." So unless we want to see God, we have to be pure in the heart. And in order to please Him, we must have faith which is another topic by itself.

By sharing this, it is not that I have flushed out all the sins in my life but it is a continuous effort with Christ in us helping us. So what i want to say is that let's make it a point that our life is unblemished and in turn Making God Famous. Amen?!!

p/s: So do not sin and fall short of His Glory eh...

Word of God

2009-08-30T00:23:00.003+08:00

Well as I have been reading the book Breaking Intimidation which is coming to an end (oh by the way, it has ended.......) and I have begun reading the new book Facing Your Giants. It is really an exciting journey or empowerment from God. I just can't get enough of it and I discovered that actually reading is fun. Sometimes it is not that the book is boring, it is our mind that told us that it is boring. So there it is, a desire has built up in me to want to discover more of God besides the Word.

Anyway, this book really make me realized or reminded me a lot of time, I have been intimidated by circumstances around me, people of status or stature in the church (you know sometimes you just feel much lower than those who have read THE BOOK inside out) in a way. Thus it somehow made the move of God dormant. So the word really hit me that we as Christian should be running this race with the Spirit guiding and empowering us and not run away from it. It is time to confront when there is a need to confront which is the intimidation.

Anyway, this is the word that I wanted to share with you which was repeated quite often in the book especially towards the last few chapters. Here it goes....

2 Tim 1:6-7
⁶For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. ⁷For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
(click on it which will lead you to the Bible website)

So as a Christian, let us continue to fan the flame that is in us and also spurring one another to run this race of God with the spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline which will make us more effective in doing the work of God.

Bros and Sis' in Christ, let's break the power of intimidation that is around us and MAKE GOD FAMOUS!!.

God bless. =)

I Feel Like I'm Falling

2009-08-25T12:05:00.005+08:00

VERSE 1:
Standing tall in this wide space,
Getting lost in Your embrace.
I see a fire burning brighter;
It's calling me to catch the flame.

CHORUS:
I feel like I'm falling over and over in love with You.
It's not just a feeling, but I know that He is real.
I feel like I'm falling into the arms of a mighty God.
It's not just a feeling, but I know that He is real.

VERSE 2:
You're drawing me closer to Your side;
It's the safest place I know where to hide.
With one glance You captured my heart;
You speak Your words and set me apart.

BRIDGE:
I feel like I'm falling, I feel like I'm falling,
I feel like I'm falling, falling into the arms of love.

©1998 Raymond Badham / Hillsong Music Australia
Words and Music by Raymond Badham

God brought this song back into mind the moment I sat in front of the computer to start my work. The first line of the chorus kept ringing in mind. "I feel like I'm falling...". So I searched for the lyrics which I had in my pc and then got hold of the mp3. As I kept listening to it over and over again, tears just weld up. God reminded and desired for me to fall in love with Him again through this season of my life. I wanted and prayed for New Encounters with Him. Something that has not been happening to my life for quite sometimes....maybe it's high time.

=) p/s: This is a simple song that has touched me. So I hope that it does to you.

Facing Your Giants

2009-08-20T17:03:00.006+08:00

Good afternoon to all...hahhaa. I am back from Sarawak Mission Trip with my church mates. It is indeed a rewarding trip though it is short and got distracted by certain issues in my life.

Anyway this afternoon while eating lunch with my mom at Island Red Cafe at Gurney Hotel, God somehow prompted me to go to MPH Bookstore at Gurney Plaza to try to check whether they sell TD Jakes book that I am looking for. So off I went and was disappointed when I reached there. They DO NOT STOCK the book. A big SIGH.

But yet God has other plans for me. He led me to this book by Max Lucado. And the title is Facing Your Giants and without much thinking, I bought it. The reason I bought it is due to the fact that it is written by this awesome Christian author (I read the other book by him called The 5 Beatitudes). And the other reason is I want to better myself in my walk and I wanted to face the giants (struggles) that is affecting certain part in my life recently. It is not going to be easy but I know I can with God in me. Ok ok, I am not going to start this book till I finish Breaking Intimidation by John Bevere which I have finished 2/3 of it. Coming to an end soon.

Adios for now! Will update you with my Sarawak trip after I get all my thoughts right. Hahaha....take care and may PAPA continue to bless you all who read this.

This is how the books looked like. Well you can borrow from me after I had finished it.

Api KemuliaanMu

2009-07-27T17:07:00.005+08:00

Good afternoon.... this is one song that has been ringing in my heart and mind for the past 1 week ever since we met up for the 1st time to prepare for the mission trip to Sarawak from 9-15 Aug. Oh I didn't update...never mind, so now you know.

But prior to that we in the worship team has also been compiling songs for CG and also for small group meeting usage. Anyway, the reason of this sharing is about the mission trip. We have to learn Bahasa songs (Lagu Rohani), Iban songs and also preparing testimony in Bahasa. Due to that, God has brought to mind this song that I used to sing when I first attended my previous church, RGBC. I used to be from a Bahasa Service (Youth Meeting then) before they switched to English when the whole Bahasa service was kind of channeled to EPCC (sorry if the fact is wrong coz this is what I thought, hahaha). Well, let me share with you the song in lyric form till I find the MP3 online.

API KEMULIAANMU
G Em E Am
Kami berkumpul Tuhan dihadapan tahtaMu
D D7 G
Sujud menyembah dalam indahNya hadiratMu
Em E Am G F
Kami rindu curahan kuasa Roh Kudus
Bm Em Am D G D
Genapi firmanMu jadikanku alatMu

Reff:
G Em Am D
Biar belas kasihanMu Bapa, penuhi hati kami
Am D C Am D
Curahkan kuasa Roh Kudus, Api KemuliaanMu
G Em B Em
Membakar hati yang rindu, untuk melayaniMu
C D/C
Sampai seluruh neg'ri ini
Bm Em
Sampai seluruh bumi ini
Am D G
Dipenuhi Api KemuliaanMu

Hope that the lyrics of the song bless you if you can understand Bahasa. I will try to translate the meaning in English to you soon. Enjoy ya and God bless!!!

P.A.F

2009-07-23T16:33:00.002+08:00

What is P.A.F? Well that's Prayer and fasting in short. Right now in my 4th day of it. It has been sometimes since I last did this and I would say I am going into the grooves of it.

In actual fact, I started of doing a meal fast which is lunch and since it has been sometimes, I have to get use to it. I am not a person who can get gastric easily but yet on the 2nd day of the fast, felt that my stomach is not feeling well. Maybe it's gastric, maybe not.

Oh by the way, you might be asking what's the occasion that we are PAF? In actual fact, PAF is something that God would love us to make it a norm in our life. Jesus fasted and prayed in the word. Just imagine Jesus a God and Man fasted. So this is something that we as Christian should do. Ok Ok...the reason is we are praying for the church and also the upcoming mission trip. And it is getting more exciting when we know and felt that the enemy is not happy and we can feel the onslaught already.

Anyway, God reminded me through Pastor Edward when we met up for practice for the mission trip that the enemy can distract us in a subtle and natural way. So even as I am reminded of it, I have made up my mind that I am going to persevere on with what I have decided to fast and to run this race for HIM. I know and I know that He will see me through by giving me the strength even if I felt that my tummy is not feeling well.

I want to thank God that today, I don't feel anything. Just a bit of withdrawal symptoms ... hahaha... because I am also fasting tea and coffee which is one of the 'must' drink in my daily intake. hehehe...

So let's fast together and make GOD famous!!!!

Breaking Intimidation

2009-07-20T15:03:00.004+08:00

Told you in my earlier post that reading is not my 2nd nature right but then, I have made up my mind to cultivate this nature so that i can grow in my life both spiritual and also knowledge...so this is the book that I have just started while waiting for news on my TD Jakes book.

Anyway, it is interesting how, we as Christians can be so afraid and fearful of the world, what people think, say, that it cripples us though we hear Papa speaking to us so loud.

Just into my first chapter and Papa has reminded how I sometimes let fear cripples us thus in turn cripples the work of Papa.

So let's continue to let Papa work in, through and around us that we will be a blessing to others. Amen?

IT IS FINISHED

2009-07-17T01:05:00.008+08:00

Continued....

Fuiyoh~~! Finally I have finished the book called THE SHACK and indeed it is a wonderful experience. It has been a long time that I read a book moreover finishing it. Tried a few times but failed halfway.

But then, I think it is really high time that I restart this passion though it is not my 2nd nature. Still this is something that can be learn and grow.

Anyway, coming back to The Shack. Though it is fiction as I shared earlier on, it talks about 1 very important thing and that is PAPA WANTS TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP with us whether we like it or not. His love is so abundant that we as His children cannot just stand still and watch or even think. And because of His love for us, Jesus has to come and be Man to die for our sin. It is Jesus who has come and through Him, we are forgiven and given new life to live. What a Papa that we have.

The book is so WOW that it brings me to tears when I looked back in my own life. How sometimes my mind is so narrow, so inward looking and sometimes relying on my own strength to grow. Papa is always there for me and yet I had to be reminded. And indeed The Shack has opened my heart to what my life is all about and without Him, I don't think I can survive till now. Without Him, I am missing out a great deal of things in my life....

So as you read this, be encouraged and know we can always return to Him and restart our relationship afresh and be guided by Him in our daily walk. Amen??

May you experience Papa and His love and I pray that indeed you will feel His love flowing down your life.

Now what's the next book to read? Found it but have to buy and the title is He-Motions: Even Strong Men Struggle by T.D. Jakes but while waiting for it, 2 books caught my eyes...it's by John Bevere ... Breaking Intimidation and Dr Larry Crabb.. Inside Out. Guessed either one is good. This are the 2 books that I tried but then never succeed in finishing it. =)

The Shack

2009-07-12T21:52:00.014+08:00

This is the title of the book that I had wanted to upload for the past few days. Just to let you know that I have been reading it which I normally don't. Why you may ask? Well if those of you who know me, I am not a type of person that likes to read books.

So to continue on, the reason why I am reading The Shack is because my Connect Group is using it for Bible Study. Mind you, this book is powerful though it is just been categorized as a fiction book or story.

Anyway, just to excite you is this, I am drawn into reading and to finish this book. Not that I had to because of being asked by my CG leader or because of the studies but because it is God who has drawn me to it. Though it is not like I finished it in 1 seating but cannot just stop reading. This book is addictive not because of the way it was written but because of God who is called Papa, Jesus and also the Holy Spirit named Sarayu in this book.

Currently I am in Chapter 13 going into 14, and Papa (this is what I want to call my God like what was mentioned in this book). Right now I felt much closer calling this. Trying to. Heheh..and this is the chapter that hit the nail in reminding me of who I am and who I need in my life. A chapter before tells of a lot of emotions that went on in the main character of the book. How sadness, bitterness towards Papa.

Anyway, what I want to say is this. Papa spoke to me very clearly that in the midst of trying to so called 'troubleshoot' my problems in life, the emotion and mental issues that I faced...I actually left Papa, Jesus or even Holy Spirit out of the picture. Out of my life.

In life, this always happen...and I believed not only myself is experiencing it. I believed that most of us Christians forgot about Papa when we faced problems. Some of us even says that we better don't disturb Papa with it...we can solve it ourselves. Some even turn back and blamed Papa for all the problems that we went through. So do remember this, Papa is always with us. So whether big or small problems happens....do remember this, Papa is always there for us and always near us. Just that we are too engrossed in our problems, we forgot about Him. And like what my pastor used to say, that Papa is just a prayer away and His hands is never too short to protect us, to bless us.

So for those of you who are reading this...go and get The Shack and I pray that Papa will speak to you through it. Ok..let me finished the book and then continue on ok...and if you want, I can lend it to you once my sis finish it also.

Father I pray that even as people read this, they will be blessed and reset our hearts and eyes back to you. In Jesus' name, Amen.

to be continued.....

Concerted Effort

2009-07-05T08:36:00.007+08:00

Good morning or maybe good afternoon or evening to some depending on when and what time you are reading this.

It is now 8.38am and I usually don't wake up and get ready to church for morning prayer/prac this early every Sunday morning. Most of the time it is somewhere around this time that I wake up. Today I wake up early not because I have set the alarm at 7.45am. Even if I set it, I normally SNOOZED...hahahahhaa. This week is the week that I have experienced waking up very early in the morning but yet tried to snooze for a while and yet I can't. The moment eyes opened, a lot of things swarmed into my head.

Well, I tried to put the thoughts behind the back of my head in order for me to have an extra 10-15 mins of rest but yet cannot. Ok ok, I have experienced it before and it has everything related to my early post. A lot of 'if's, 'maybe's, 'i think so's, 'should be it's swam in my head. Trying to figure out but then this very word "concerted effort' kept popping in my head.

I obviously checked through the dictionary to find out what does it mean and true enough....I cannot do this alone. I cannot kick this thoughts away from my head alone except with a concerted effort. With who you may ask? Well as a Christian, I usually encourage people that one cannot live an 'island' life but to be among His people in order to grow. And this morning got a revelation that it is not only that we need to live a life among His people physically but also with God, The Triune God.

So when I said earlier that I need a concerted effort to forget or think of this issue, it is talking about doing this with the Triune God in the picture. I don't think I can do this alone and I really need His help. So Bros and Sis in Christ, a lot of time as human being, we tend to use our own effort or strength to some to try to kick away habits, etc and most of the time, we failed. I failed. This issue is actually at an early stage so asking God right now that help me to go around it.

I always claim this 1 Corinthians 10:13 which says ^"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." especially the word in Bold. It says it perfectly that God will provide a way out and I can stand up under it. So I am claiming this that I am and will be victoriously over my thoughts or even any issues that I am facing.

Well...what a morning. So remember this.....we cannot live an island life but a life with communion with God and also His people. That's where we can draw strength and courage from. Amen.....take care and pray that you are encouraged by this.

Relationship

2009-07-04T10:36:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps, even as you read this blog, you will be thinking who, what when and how... and for those of you who knew me will be asking, 'Hmm, who is that person?""How come I don't know?" blablabla....

Anyway, no worries. It is none of the above. What I wanted to share is this .... when you least expected it, it can be a distraction for our spiritual walk. Recalling back from the years of having going through it, I am very much aware of what is coming my way this time. But yet it still troubles me. I don't know whether it is because of my temperament ke or not, I guessed I nearly fall for it again. I didlah went through some emotional turmoil that leads to having disturb thoughts. Thank God it is just at an early stage or else I would have been crashing the wall again.

Well what is this all about, as we thought that we have passed the acid test that was thrown at us, rest be assured that another test will come by us if we are not prepared or ready for it. Aiya, you will say that it's ok one, it won't happen to me. Hallo, when God allows it to happen, no matter whether you are a pastor or not, you will still go through this turbulent. Sad to say, some passed and some failed but God is not finished with us. Until and unless, we acknowledge that God is the sovereign one, then only we will come out victoriously.

As for me, I think God is kicking me in my butt telling me that hey, I am here. You knowlah..sometimes people can forget God when we enter any relationships. So I guessed this is something that God IS TELLING me that He is not in the picture. Sigh.
All in all, just praise God that as I was about to bang my head against the wall again and God has in a way helped me to pull the handbrakes. Missed by an inch to the wall. I am still feeling the effects but I know that God will take me through this VICTORIOUSLY! Amen~!

PROCRASTINATION

2009-06-30T16:53:00.008+08:00

Gosh, it has been 3 months since I last updated. Something that I wanted to do but yet I put it off. So it is high time that I put this into words and indeed I want to confess that this is something that I have to improve myself if I wanted to be somewhere where God wants to place me. (Sometimes this procrastination word can easily be known as being lazy, Kenny' therminology) Hehehe

Well as the title of this blog says, I indeed have this minor problem in me that I need to change. I can easily tell myself that maybe it is because of my Sanguine nature that I am like this but yet it will be all wrong. I am a child of God and I believe that with the Holy Spirit, I can change to be a better person but yet sometimes, I failed because human nature took over. What a crap! Sometimes it burdens me when things wasn't done and at the end, it is a rush job and I did something stupid out of it which in turn hurt me spiritually or maybe physically. Ooops maybe not physically-la but more or less spiritual and emotionally. Every time I have to ask God for forgiveness and to change me.

I have to confess here that because of this, I lost a few clients and it does hurt me emotionally. I kept asking myself, where have I gone wrong and the word is Procrastination. See even when I am writing this, I am asking God to forgive me. I know I cannot do it alone and I needed God's help in this.

Ya, maybe I need an iPhone to help me with this but then, what's the point of having a phone organiser when sometimes I myself don't even use it. I tried using one before and I tell you, it's really troublesome especially when batteries ran out and everything is wiped out. So it's a waste of money buying or having an iPhone. And by the way, that is not iPhone but some other brand. As what one of my friend told me, having such thing is sometimes just want to be LS (it's a hokkien word meaning showing off) but then hor, if I got money, I will surely invest in it. Aiya, sorry ya, got out of topic a bit. ahhaha.......

Anyway even as I am typing this, I pray and ask God to help me to change and not to be forgetful and procrastinate. Something that I believe I can change. It is not by might or by power but by My Spirit says the Lord. Amen.........

EVERYTHING'S NEW

2009-04-03T11:43:00.005+08:00

Anyong haseyo, greetings ... in the name of our Lord Jesus. Wow, never knew that I haven't been blogging for more than a year and my last post is also the only post for 2008.

I actually wanted to blog but somehow no inspirations or sometimes plain lazy. Hahaha. Anyway, I should restart everything not only blogging but my life as a whole.

Well let's start this blog by me saying this ... THANK GOD for everything that He has blessed me with especially my APAC (Asia Pacific Floorball Championship 2009 in PyeongTaek, Korea) trip last week from 22-31 Mar. Well the dates include the flight to and fro Penanglah. The reason that I am blogging this is to testify of God's goodness.

WHY (a big why, hehe)...you may ask me? For those who knew this, basically, I am not supposed to be going for this APAC. Well let me start by saying that, everyone has been given a chance to prove themselve to be selected for this championship about 5-6 months ago after a dismay outing in the Perth APAC 2008. The whole team was scrapped in the way and everyone was given a fresh restart to prove of their worth in playing for the team. And I for one, was excited and got myself enrolled in a gym to boost my stamina up and lose some weight but I think I gain a bit because of the bit of muscle mass I gain (maybe wrong workout, sigh) or I can say that I didn't really gain or lose, my weight was fluctuating. Lagi teruk

Anyway, let's not talk about my weight here. It's about His goodness. So after a couple of training, came February which is the time for the final team selection which was held in Balik Pulau Sport Complex. After the training, the team was selected and you are right in guessing (if you are) that I am not listed. I was a bit sad and frustrated in a way (not because of not being chosen but because I knew in my heart that I am not up to mark compared to those selected in terms of my physical ability). I thought I had a chance but was not chosen. Sad being sad, and if not mistaken, I submit my sadness to the Lord. I told myself that it is in His hands and He knows what is good for me. With that I told myself to improve and try again for the next championship. Even after that I was hoping that people would pull out so that I can be selected. That's my thought which later I found it to be crazy and in a way childish. God knows best. I even shared it (not my thoughts but not being chosen) with Penny my sis and she just said that God has a better plan for me for not going. Definitely a refreshing reminder that hey, He has better plans for us if something that want and didn't get it. So to those out there, do not fret and get angry with God if things didn't materialise. It is in His great plan and timing.

So after that I didn't think much about it. But in between Feb and the last training in Mar, quite a number of players pulled citing exams and work. Quite disheartening to hear but again no more call up of extra player to replace. To me, so be it because by that time, I am more or less contented that I am not going ($$ problem). Then come 12-15 March weekends... the FINAL training with 2 friendly matches agains Team Black Blast (something like that). Those not chosen was given an option of joining the team in sparring and training. So I for one like to give all my support went down to KL for this training. During one of the night, coach Edward told me that if I want to go, I still can but have to think properly because I might just sit on the bench without much playing time and I didn't really giving much thought about it.

The next day, head coach Dennis and Ed talked to me and given me an option to be a part of the team with the intention of just being an extra player to help rest tired players during the game and I was given the time to give my Yes to the coaches. Wow, you can say that after that, there is so many thoughts swimming in my heads with works because if I go, 9 days without work and that cost money. Can't really concentrate in a way during the breaks but I do give my best.

With that, I quickly called up my sis for opinion and also PRAYER and this is one of her sms to me... "Don't let finance stop you but I think it's more of whether God wants you to go this time! So PRAY... I'll pray.....blablabla....and that struck me a bit. After that, I also smsed my Connect Group to pray with/for me in this trip. And I remember at night that I called up my parents and this is what my father said if you want to go, go...... wah la..what an encouragement but then at the back of my mind, money is still one of my concern and I kept on praying in my heart for the direction. Right now, to me it's not about going and representing my country but whether it is His will for me to go.

The next morning came and the coach Dennis asked me again and this time by FAITH I said yes and after that, everything is history and I went to Korea and back to Penang again. Actually I was given a very short time to thing because the final training before APAC is 1 week away from the real championship. That's the reason why I am a bit troubled by it.

Anyway, what I want to say is this.. ALL GLORY TO GOD who made this trip possible because it is through Him who gave the money through my father. Amen!! That is after a few days of deliberating on where the money will come from. Drop from heave? Hopela...maybe if we look up the sky, most likely bird s**t will drop.. hahaha... Anyway, He blessed and I managed to go and Malaysia had a great outing this year managing a fourth place in a 6 teams tourney. Praise God.

So what I want to encourage you who are reading this is that our God is good and at His time, everything will be made possible and all this is through faith and prayer. Amen? Amen!

pst!! pst!! Will update you a bit on APAC in my next blog.

A new beginning

2008-03-15T11:38:00.001+08:00

It's really interesting how things change with just one decision that led to completion of things. That is what happen to Malaysia or particularly Penang since I am a penang-kia. The 12th General Election just passed about a week ago. See how time flies. Hehe.

It's interesting on what's happening in the political scene in Malaysia. A change has begun when the very first voter cast his/her vote. The decision has been made. A lot of people still leaving in a state of denial when the results came out. But before all GE12, I believe that Malaysian as a whole has made up their mind to go for a change especially the government that they are not happy with. Well with that came the tsunami results in the political scene. Old faces go and new faces came in. After that a lot of hoo has about keeping promises blablabla.

Well I better don't dwell too much in this. It can make you hyped up about what's going on and lead you to be disillusioned about things. But someone did asked me, what do I think about the new government that was taken by DAP? As for me, after the whole thing, it does give a shock at first on the results. WOW I thought to myself, what's going to happen? Few thoughts came into mine.....will there be another May13.....what if this and that happen. Honestly I felt the shiver down my spine when I knew about the results. Fear, pity (for those whom I think will not lose but yet they lost) and a bit of mix feelings of sad and gladness crap in. Why, sad because of what has happened and glad because I personally am not happy with the previous governing when the rights of individuals are neglected (a bit disgusted with certain ways the politicians handled the case of non-m) but what can I do about it. Nothing, absolutely nothing...but to pray that the new government will not let the people down. So right now, I am just letting everything running it's course with the guidance from the Most High. Let's continue to pray that the new CM and government will have the reverence of God and lead the people with integrity and right purpose in mind.

And for me, even writing this, it does hit me. It does lead me to think of my own life. Besides the guidance of our Lord... sometimes or most of the times, it is our decision that will lead us. Because our Lord is not a God of dictatorship that forces you to go the way He wants though He has a plan for us. He gives us choices. He gives us freedom to choose. And at the end it is our choice or decision that will lead us there. With this our Lord is not giving up on us...but He allows us to go through it and learn from it with teaching us that our choices or ways to do things can fail us.

So just like Penangite choosing looking for a change... let us choose Jesus for a change. That's the right choice to make.

Praise the Lord

2008-02-29T18:16:00.000+08:00

Wow oh wow!! I haven't been blogging since September 2007. That's very very long. Well it's not going to be the same anymore. I will restart and continue from here. Kekekeke.

As what the title says, I am praising the Lord here. Continuing from Sept...

I was very frustrated with 2 clients at that time. One being a big company and another whom I treated as a friend. Both actually owed me or Faith Resources (my company) the payment to the jobs that I had done for them. Numerous calls was made but somehow it wasn't going anywhere. Nothing was done. Every time when I called....the answers given were "esok lusa" (that kind of promises like ok, ok, tomorrow I pay) promises and answers. So as a small fry in the world of business, I can't do anything but to allow it to happen.

Got really fed-up after that. Cried for God's intervention... and you know what, after much pray (guessed Penny prayed more than I do) hehehe, God answered. He does works miracles.

God made in such a way that He led me to know of another personnel in that company that linked us to the General Manager. After meeting with the GM, a month later.... viola.... the cheque was ready and banked in to my account. Well praise God for that, I don't even have to make effort to bank it myself..Hahahahahaha.

And for the other friend, guessed I have to rely on His strength to continue to believe that he will pay up some day. He does promised about a month ago before Chinese New Year that he will at least pay me RM1.5K but no news for him from that day. Calls went unanswered and you know what, saw his friendster photo with him spending CNY with friend wearing stylist clothes. So where does he get his money from when he said he don't have much to pay me. This is absurd and made me mad but I can't do anything ... and from today onwards, I will continue to look to heaven and wait for reply again.

Lord, I pray that you will intervene. Amen.....

What a day to start

2007-09-28T11:07:00.000+08:00

My oh my....what a day to start.

Right now I really don't know how to express myself. I don't know whether to be angry or sad but there is one for sure.... really 'pissed'. Sorry to use that word. I really can't help it. I wanted to cry out but somehow I can't. As you know, you wanted to but can't and that feelings is like having something choking at the throat. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh..... LORD HELP ME!! Sigh... ran out of ideas of what to do with people owing my company money but to really depend on the Almighty to intervene.

To be continued.....